It only gets harder
with every day that passes
The dreams become more real (nightmares)
The images never go away
everything triggers the thoughts (well not everything but allot of things)
This is much to hard
everything hurts
To be awake
to sleep
to breath
to eat
I dont think I can do it much more...
2 more weeks and it will be a year out of a hospital
Im coming apart at the seams, but I wont go back, to hear others talking/having tried to kill themselves ...when I just lost my husband to suicide.
I may jump them, or kill them
so they will have MORE of a reason to keep me there.
but
the if this shit continues, I just dont think I will make...
I just dont know how :(
6 comments:
No words of wisdom, just a cyber hug. You can make it! find someone, not a profesional, to talk to. Just talk. Some one that you can do it with in real time. Even it is just a pastor or something. Good luck, God bless and big hugs.
Hug Hug Hug
Think of your little ones. They love you. You love them.
*hugs* I'm thinking of you hun. Please make sure you are safe and if you are not, take yourself somewhere where you are!
you know i hear you
i too could have written this post
this isn't what you want to hear but i'm going to say it anyway.. time. it does get easier. there will be more good days and the dreams (nightmares) will lessen.
have you got a project you can work on that embraces you?
Xx
Love you! You are stronger then this. You will get through this. God is in charge
Draw close to the Lord and to people who support you! Lean on them to get you through! We are all pulling for you!
I wish I could help. Just know that I care.
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