It only gets harder
with every day that passes
The dreams become more real (nightmares)
The images never go away
everything triggers the thoughts (well not everything but allot of things)
This is much to hard
To be awake
I dont think I can do it much more...
2 more weeks and it will be a year out of a hospital
Im coming apart at the seams, but I wont go back, to hear others talking/having tried to kill themselves ...when I just lost my husband to suicide.
I may jump them, or kill them
so they will have MORE of a reason to keep me there.
the if this shit continues, I just dont think I will make...
I just dont know how :(