ugh this is day 4!!! yep I said it day 4!!!!
its hard stuff this eating and not purging, what am I feeling...scared as hell. K said she is goignto increase my MP NEXT week...ekkkk, slightly freaking.
why is it so hard for me to want to take care of my body?? I just called my Doc and was like PLEASE call me back I need to know if my potassium is normal cause I do NOT want to keep taking my supplement...blahhhh
I speak with K everyday, and she keeps encouraging me to stay well, and practice self care...which i am trying to do, but...
The voices are screaming and I just want to cry and scream and roll around on the floor like ummm a 2 year old throwing a temper tantrum. yeah that sounds like a good a idea, a nice tantrum.
I dont know what else to write except this is hard as hell but I am doing it...blahhhh