what are you so afraid of..what do NORMAL people do when they are not involved in an ED?? got me . but you know what I have all this free time now that I am consumed with my Ed..I mean it still play s a large role in my thinking but now that I am not restricting or purging i have allot of free time...so what do I do?? I might take a art class over the summer if I can afford it...well see.
what do you guys to??
I am so Bored
love, Z
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I try and play my guitar...not so well. :)
Oh wow, I have so much to say to that! I was in the hospital doing NOTHING for 2 months last summer! Well I got outside and made friends, but no family, no getting off grounds, and no internet (kinda). I experimented with all and any kinds of interests and hobbies. It was such a good opportunity to do that. I'm now doing the stuff that I never would have known I could do, or known I would enjoy- the collage art. I made it up one day as a journal form. But then one of my friends said to me, long after the hospital, to try and make them on big canvases like actual artwork. I tried it out, and I am still in the beginning stages. I've been doing it for 2 months. Like I said, I never would have even heard of doing it unless I had that free "bored" time to figure it out. You'll figure out your thing. Maybe it will incorporate your kids, maybe it will be on your own! :) When you figure it out, it will be easy and therapeutic, and people will tell you you're good at it. You'll know when you find it.
*hugs* at the end of the day hun, you just gotta try things! Because I'm so tired all the time (thanks to the CFS), I often dream things and write them down or I surf the internet and pretend to spend money (that I don't have) or write emails, or learn things that I have wanted. I try to just ahve a range of different activities that I can do when I'm feeling different ways. Let us know what you come up with hunni!!! xoxo
Hey Z: I understand the boredom but isn't it much better then Ed. I think your idea of taking an art class is a good idea. Who knows down the road you may even go back to school for something. I think this may be a good time to focus on your dreams. Can you make some life goals on your blog?
I know the struggle is still hard but you are doing it Zena and I'm so proud of you! I have the same fear of not having a treatment team if I get all better. The road ahead may be tough but it seems alot more doable when others are on the same path. I love you to bits! I think I'll go write on my blog.
Distractions! My favorite leisure activities (to get away from ED) are journalling, watching television, and doing craft projects. FInd what you're good at. :)
i read- books, blogs, mags; i love being outside and go to parks alot to walk around and draw stuff, i like playing with clay, i see friends and have conversations, take my little sibs (I guess u would sub in kids) places like the zoo or a museum, I love me my Netflix, set goals and research plans for the future and get to work on them, redecorate the apartment, cook food with my honey, take bubble baths, plan hypothetical vacations on expedia that I may or may not ever get to take, get in contact with ppl I haven't talked to in forever, yoga or just stretching, meditating, looking for new music on the internet, and weirdely, I really like cleaning.
but thats just me :)
I LOVE TO CLEAN!!!!
thanks guys for all your responses...I am feeling really down today and will write another post bout it later....
love, Z
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