I am drowning!!!
I engaged( doesn't that look like en (gag) ed) ...get it gag ED, in behaviors 2xs in the last well 2 days..no biggie you say, well maybe you don't say it but fuck I do..what is wrong with me I had all those day s purge free and then creep ...creep creep, The Bulimia demon comes crawling back it in, Like it never left. Crap. I want to cry, scream and yelp cause i am freaking out.
K called, around 3 we talked for about 12 min...that's a long N check in you know, anyway, shes worried ( AGAIN). She was like don't beat yourself up but you can NOT let this become a pattern again and NO pills..I swore I wouldn't be taking any pills and I wont be i mean the purging is bad enough... ugh...
I HATE ME
Help me girls I am... needing an act of GOD...seriously...pray for me if you pray and if you dont well could you start cause things are not cheery in the land of Z.