thats where I am at folks finding this road bumpy and hard and trying not to self sabotage...however the fuck you spell that. I over ate last night..blahhhh...want to restrict today..know thats not the answer but its what feels "right" you know.
I had one of A's friend spend the night yesterday...which leads to stress..of course cause the 4 of them being so close in age FIGHT like demon children...I tell you like little monsters of course they were up bright and early 6:45 am blahhh and so that's was good for my MP but alas here we are 2 hours later and I have not had breakfast yet..WTF..I need to get my ass on track!!!
I was reading Karasblog and she was talking about sitting with feelings and I was thinking that is exactly what I need to do..sit with it..whatever it is.
i need a bunch of support guys cause yesterday sucked ass and I really need to get back on track today....SUPPORT ME PLEASE!!!
yesterday S and I were talking about grief and loss, How I am grieving the loss of my ED and how sad it makes me, like there is this huge hole in my life and I dont know how to fix it...blahhhh I am so sad guys I miss the comfort my ED brought me..i dont know how to deal...i am so sad...sad I tell you...I amsitting here in my pajamas feeling like a big lump of shit and I dont know how to get out of this rut.Fuck I will not go back I will not!!!
ookay guys SUPPORT ME!! tell me how great I am, and that I can do this cause right now my faith is really wavering.