No really he does
while I was IP I met a guy and befriended him...we exchanged phone numbers...I told M about it I wasn't trying to hide anything. the numbers were ripped up and I realize that it was the wrong thing to do. well M has been harping on the J thing for like ever...he says I have ruined him. I was drunk the other night and M asked me if I would have slept with J and I said Yes ...why I said that I dont know cause I wouldnt have but its eating him alive and I dont know how to fix it.
I think hes going to leave me
really this time I think he has had enough
between my Ed, my careless spending and now me being an I dont know stupid ass..hes says hes ruined...I have no defense for actions other then I was NOT innmy right frame of mind and I dont know what I was thinking. I do not want to cheat on my husband. I never would. But he thinks that I would and thats all that seems to matter right now. I dont know How to convince him otherwise. I love him and I know I dont show it or say it enough but really I do..so what to I do...He makes and is saing I am nothing but a cheap slut although nothing happened...hes convinced it would have. the thing is I am the one who told him about J I mean if I never said anything he w would have never known...ugh How do I get myself in to these messes??
Is the diseases??
I mean I wont have sex with M ( hence part of the problem) I would nt have sex with anyone I mean geez i feel like I am fat cow I would never let anyone see my body undressed...hello...I have an ED..ugh...this sucks and i dont know what to do or say to make this better for him. he says i am ruining his life. maybe i am. maybe he deserves better. Maybe we would be better apart. I just dont know anymore...what do I do folks how do i make this better?? any thoughts?? or do you all think I am a whore too...you probally do. why am I even posting this??