Sunday, June 13, 2010

not much to say

but I am safe...

the new meds seem to be helping some...

I AM TAKING THEM AS DIRECTED...except for the food part :(

I cancelled my appointment with K, I dont want to talk about the food I am/not eating....i will just get back on track and see her next week...fingers crossed.

Tomorrow I will shower, and I will do something other then lay in my bed and cry...I actually have to meet another one of my sisters bridesmaids and discuss the shower we are planning...2 hours of bridal shower planning should be fun NOT!

but I will try to not let in trigger me into an extreme grief episode thats what they are calling it now...

Oh on a positive note I called a place called "Haven House" they offer services regaurding grief and loss of all kinds including suicide support groups, and classes...I really think it will help, to see how other people are getting through this...anyway...I made the call...which is the first step.

Hope you all had a good weekend and that I can bring you some good news at somepoint this week, if not Ill just fake it :)

Love, Tara

3 comments:

Angela Elain Gambrel said...

I'm glad to hear you are doing a little bit better.

You don't have to fake it. All this will take time - your time.

Hugs and prayers
Angela

firefly said...

I'm glad you are checking into Havean house. Hang in there! A bit of food may help.I did sugarfree pudding tonight.

Sairs said...

I am also glad you are feeling slightly better. I can't imagine what you are going through, but you know I have thought about being in your place and I seriously don't know that I could be as strong as you have been and you really have been, even if you don't feel it. You are still here and you are still trying. I know it's hard, but just keep putting one foot in front of the other and hopefully one day soon, you won't need to fake it.
*hugs*
Sarah