Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Autobiography in Five sections by Portia Nelson

You may have or may not have heard this before, I have by my T, but if you havent its just a few short paragraphs but it speaks volums> and even if you have heard it, I think it bares repeating!

I walk down the street.
There is a hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It is'nt my fault.
It takes forever to find my way out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk, I pretend I dont see it.
I fall in again.
I cant believe I'm in the same place.
But it isnt my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it there.
I still fall in...it is a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It IS my fault.
I get out immediately.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk AROUND it.

I walk down a different street.



What paragraph are you at?

I believe I am at #3...need to work on walking around the hole and finding a different street!

Happy Tuesday

Love, Tara

4 comments:

firefly said...

Aww an oldie but goodie. I think it can change all the time as we step forward and backward. The steps accept that you clearly would move from one to the next. I think recovery is different. You are never in the same spot. Hmm it's like climbing a mountain. Every mountain you climb is not the same and you could even climb the exact same mountion and have two different experiences. You learn from your past but sometimes you find yourself in the same spot. I do think nutrition does also have an effect on the process. In the beginning maybe you are making a clear choice to not eat but the longer you go without food the less choice I see in keeping those behaviors and awareness of behaviors is not there. Does that make sense? I think I believe you are never in the same spot with your ed.

筠銘 said...

生存乃是不斷地在內心與靈魂交戰;寫作是坐著審判自己。...........................................................................

Tia said...

I think I'm at #2.
thanks for posting... I had read that before but forgot about it until now.

Tia @ Dietcolagirl

Lindsey said...

Stumbled across your blog and thought I'd leave a comment on this post. I've actually never heard this from my Therapist - e.d. or otherwise.

Actually, I think I'm somewhere in the middle - between paragraph three and four. I'm far enough into my recovery, but sometimes I have lapses that lead me back to paragraph three again. But that's okay, because I get back out, and walk around.