Monday, August 23, 2010

Yes he did..

I said it.

I took it back

I was crying

she didnt know what i meant

but I did

and he did

he left us

he did

he chose to leave

and its a secret i know

and they dont

and it aches

it aches so much

they cant know

but i do

its not fair

none of it

my pain...thiers

it makes no difference

that I know

he did

he made the choice

yes he did

he left us

we are alone

and I hold the secret within me

and I am so

broken

6 comments:

flaweddesign said...

i hurts more than i can imagine. :( even just to read this. *hugs*

jadedchalice said...

You are so strong...I can only imagine how you are feeling, i would never want to say i know but i can imagine, and im so sorry. I wish i could give you a hug and i want to say you are so incredibly strong and brave.

jadedchalice said...

you are so strong you hold onto hope no matter what. i am so proud of you, i can only imagine how you must be feeling. Much love

Zena said...

My loves your words bring me comfort, trying to hold on to the hope in the future, just seems so far away

belinda said...

the future lies in our next minute, our next breath in fact. you will make it through. i know this is more painful that words can express via a blog. i can only imagine what it would be like with the kidlets too. you are protecting them, for now, but this is not your secret. you have the right to speak freely and express your feelings.. maybe not to the kids but to us, your team, your family, your church, your friends.. all of us, here, listening.
you are not alone in this (i know it feels fucking lonely at times though).. remember feeling, not fact? ;)
love you.x

Angela E. Gambrel Lackey said...

I'm so sorry...all I can offer is hugs and encouragement that you can do this.

And through it all, you were able to reach out to me and give me hopeful words and strong encouragement. Thank you. You are a wonderful, kind and strong person who deserves to be better and happy. I wish and pray for that for you.

Love,
Angela