Monday, May 4, 2009

Get over it

that is what I need to do...being wieghed is NOT that big of a deal right?? I need to stop freaking over it and let it go..I just need to get the fuck over it you know...i mean most eded people get wieghed all the time why do i think i am special...well we all know that i am special but you know what i mean..I need to get over allot of things...

Like My DAD...

yep well he has been harasseing my sister about where have i been teh last six weeks and am i writting him off like my other sister did and it was driving her nuts cause I kept telling her i would call but i never did so....I stopped by his work Saturday with the boys ( safe place right) No touchy feely stuff and i left the little girl home so he couldnt touchy feely all on her either...so yeah safe!! He was completely shocked..grining from ear to ear and then he proceded to tell me that god has laid on his heart to send us some money cause he had a feeling we were struggeling...well struggleing is not the word. so yeah...moneys good ...glad I stopped by.

Like my BITCHY MIL

who says that her H my FIL will not be watching my kids while I am at Therapy durning the summer. M called her a douche bag and i am inclined to agree...I mean hello I need therapy i am nuttier then a fruit cake...they tell me so all the time..which is another thing I need to get over...blahhhh bitchy inlaws.

anyway I am doing okay not great but okay...had some nice runs this weekend and today but I am taking tomrrow off so i can see S and process some of this shit thats running through my brain ...like the more i lose the MORE I WANT to lose..not a good combo when you have an ED...Oh and I am refusing to say i have anorexia cause I am too fat right now so I am a bulimic who gave up purging...I need to get over the whole label thing too cause that can really mess with ones brain you know??

i know I sound nutty but hellah I am ..lol.:)



Love, Z

14 comments:

lisalisa said...

he he dont know why but your post made me laugh- you just have a way with words :) Sorry you got stuck with crappy in-laws; it's not fair for them to judge you yet refuse to help. Don't worry about the label thing; i myself just say i have an ED and leave it at that. Keep hanging in there :)

Just Eat It! said...

I so know what you mean about labels. I practically had a conniption the first time I was diagnosed as having an eating disorder because I didn't "fall into a category." In reality, labels don't matter and every eating disorder is equally as dangerous as the next.

PTC said...

Hmm, I don't really know what to say. You are anorexic and bulimic!!

As for getting weighed, I love it...though I don't have people weighing me so that's probably why I like it. I like getting weighed when I go to the doc though. She doesn't know i have "ED" though.

PTC said...

Oh yeah, and labels...I am so NOT "anorexic."

Zena said...

PTC..you make me grin...and ummmm you are ANOREXIC...

:)

Love, Z

PTC said...

I am so not, Zena chica. My mom said, about Samantha Harris on DWTS, "Look at her, she has to be anorecTIC." I HATE that word more than anything. It wouldnt be so bad if she said anorexic.

Dee said...

lisalisa- it because they just don't get it! They choose to ignorant instead of being supportive.

i don't think alot of people get it and to why we do what we do. maybe they just rather wear blindfolds then to see the truth.

Telstaar said...

Running out of energy so *huggles*

xoxoxo

firefly said...

Aww Dear you have an ed thats obvious.I know the weighing sucks but they are doing it for your medical protection. I hate getting money from loved ones because it comes with strings attatched. (I'll blog about that one.)love ya!

Zena said...

I am not eating til after my wiegh in tomorrow...a 2 day fast will do me good...too bad I am starving NOW!!!

lisalisa said...

no....2 day fast baaad....food gooood....repeat! Seriously, i know it's tempting, but you are probably not in a good condition to fast. I admit that i am only saying that based on my limited knowledge of you and the situation but i am just worried about you! Please take care of yourself dear :)

PTC said...

ANOREXIC!!!!!!!!! "A 2 day fast." You have an eating disorder and it's really bad.

Zena said...

I broke my fast mostly caus eS said she would ring my neck if i didnt take some healthy steps...which i did....lunch and dinner blahhh but Im not eating tomorrow til after i get wieghed i dont care what S says...

PTC..you always make me laugh

Love, Z

zubeldia said...

oh zena, this makes me sad. That voice is pretty strong, huh?

I hope you can eat; I hope you can resist playing games with yourself, with your team.. I wish you could be good to yourself, to your kids, and to take seriously your life.. because this is it, chica. This is your life, this is what it is, and it is up to you, my friend, to change things.