another chapter out of the "Life without Ed" book is called be real...So right now Ed wants me to purge, i am going to seperate the 2 voices and try a figure out what i want....I want to be real!!! i want to live a real life with real joys!! Like today for instance i went on a field trip without Ed tagging along...we went to five rivers with Zacks class and we learned all about nature and we saw frogs and geese with thier gooslings, all sorts of bugs and we even got to try honey out of the hive...it was great! i spent the whole morning thinking how great it was that my boys got to experiance nature for real.
So whats my point well Ed wants me to decieve me into thinking that, that was unimportant cause it didnt mean i lost anywieght. But i know it was real, it was a real experiance that i will get to tuck away in my memory box forever...and yes i will remember it cause it was real.
SO what am i going to do?? I am going to be real!! I am not going to purge I am going to live...i am going to have more experiances like this morning. i am going to take my kids to the park tonight and today at 5 i will meet my DH and have my boost with his support, yes folks iam going to be real today...if it lasts only a day well that was better then yesterday...I will take each day as it comes and know that teh next day can be better tehn the last all becaue I am BEING REAL!!!