Today S said either 4 winds or Amc ( albany medical center) I was like niether...she said call DR. A and see if you can get in earlier...so I go in thursday for an EKG and labs, that will decied where I go ...I cantbelieve its come to this again...I am so sick of this ed. It makes me want to cry i really have to work these programs this time...Im so scared..who will take care of my kids what will they do who will get them to school???
I have so many questions...
I am so frightened and I purged everything I ate today and yesterday...I never made it through yesterdays dinner...I made it a half an hour last night.
S asked me why its so hard this time and I explained its casue I feel so worthless like I dont deserve to feel good...but what about your kids she said ...they deserve a mom...I started to cry cause they do .they deserve better then I can give them right now.
I amso dizzy.
I need to go lay down i will let veryone what happens with the H as soon as I knwo but if I thursday I dont post again youll know where I am...the big H
Im tired now I think I need to lie down.