Friday, August 21, 2009

Im quiting

recovery is to hard..I dont wnat to do it anymore..I have been in recovery for three months and it sucks...i am to fat, i feel gross, i cant stand my body..i want to be thin again...I may quit therapy too...and seeing K and eveythingelse that goes along with Recovery from an ED!!!!






Okay okay ...im not quiting Recovery but i am quiting something....





SMOKING!!!!


GOT YA!!! :)

did I scare ANY of you?? Did anyone start to freakout with all the thoughts this chic will never get well?? BET YOU DID!!!

well I am quiting smoking TODAY!!! NOt cause i want to or cause I am afraid of dying of lung cancer or anything but because it is SO dam EXPENSIVE!!! and we are super poor...and M doesnt get paid til thursday read...6 days away...so i figure NOW would be a good time to quit...so be prepared...Im gonna be a bitch...Im gonna be a tell you like it is...sit on my hands and slap my face kinda of girl at least for a little while...

so now I am working on two bloody things..recovery from an Ed and a smoking addiction...blahhhhh

did I at least get your shorts in a bunch??

that was my point...I wanted to shock you!!!

okay peeps here is to day one...wish me luck and hope I dont piss anyone off to much or maybe i should say...hope they dont piss me off to much...okay world get out of my way...Im on my way to a smoke free life...damit all...

one more vice down the shitter....

it will be good for...at least that s what I am telling myself....


encourage me...love me...tell me how strong and great i am ...just because...I wnat you too!!!

love you all

Tara

13 comments:

lisalisa said...

ha ha ha you got me. And i was already thinking of a good motivating response on why recovery is worth it. Phew, off the hook!

i think that is great that you are quitting smoking! It will be such a good example to your kids, too! Rah rah go Tara!

belinda said...

oy!

we are in this together right, bitchy withdrawal symptoms, mood swings and all.

love your work!

X

Eating Alone said...

Oh that was just cruel. And thanks for the info on the treatment programs. I still hope Now answere's me too though. I was kind of trying to get her to think about them in a non threatening way.

And don't worry about being in a bad mood, quiting smoking is very hard. But with all the tax's on it it's well worth it.

PTC said...

GOOD!! Get rid of the stupid cancer sticks. They are vile!

Just Eat It! said...

I got nervous there for a second! I was already preparing my "...but you have to keep going!" speech. Good job for quitting smoking! You are strong, you are great, and brave. :)

Zena said...

yeah i thought it was funny!!! i am in one of those moods...thanks guys for the support...i might be a little off the wall for a while but it will definately be worth it...so far its been 5 hours...and I feel fine!!!

I felt like we needed a little spice in blog world...did I do it??

Loveyou all!!!

now.is.now said...

Geez you totally got me! And then I was like "oh, this is my fault. I essentially quit so now she's quitting and okay I'll start again if it'll get Tara to start again because if my lack of effort is having a negative effect on others then, damn, i better start trying!"

FEWF!


YES! QUIT SMOKING!!!!!

go you!

Zena said...

I am a let down down...around 5 last night i broke down and bout a pack but only smoked 1...I figured cold turkey without the patch would be TOTURE...so we cant afford the patch but we can afford for me to smoke 3 a day for aweek to ween me off the "CANCER STICKS"...so that is what i am going to do for the next week, which if you knew how much I was smoking is a HUGE improvement!! ( like a pack a day...gross)

Laura,

I am relasping I swear and its ALL your fault!!! better start eating so I can...:) Did it work? did you fall for it? well it was worth a try...eat anyway..it will make me HAPPY!!!

love you all

(Z) tara

Telstaar said...

LOL cheeky!

Yep, I was cautiously concerned at what the post was about. Although I am very aware that you (and I) have days where you just need to FEEL like you're gonna quit but then you turn around 30 minutes later and keep going... so I was kinda hoping for that sorta outcome...

Quitting smoking is way cooler though!! :)

Bitch and moan away. Please know that doing two things at once might be a bit tricky but that doesn't mean its not possible, just means you need to make sure you're using your team to their full advantage k???

Love you and believe in you!!!

*mwah*

Flushed said...

Healthy, healthy Z!! Very cool. 8)

Umm...yea, I did get sad that you were gonna quit on recovery. You have been my inspiration to pull through and change a disgusting and disordered lifestyle (I still restrict but at least I eat healthy and balanced).

So Bravo for you Z!! This is bitchtastic, I'm totally here for you!

XO

Polar Bear said...

I think it's great you are quitting smoking.

now.is.now said...

Great job at eating the eggs yesterday. It's still a very small lunch but you did a good job managing it knowing htat it was 4pm and you had dinner coming up...

No skipping lunch today, okay?

I won't. I am promising you right here that I won't. So you can't either. kay?

now.is.now said...

just a reminder for ya today....

TRUST THE PROCESS

:)

hugs!