my computer needs a new hard drive
Im so pissed
TRIGGER....numbers...sorry if you cant read numbers turn back cause I need to "purge it"
My life has become small
and full of lies
eat this...800 cal a day for 7 days no purging/....
increase 300 per week for the next 4 weeks
begrudgingly I agree
I only got her to agree to that number because I convinced her any higher would lead to me vomiting...
anything more I cant agree with and will recommend hospital
Im gonna lie
what if I just stop coming? then what??
can you certify me then??
I dont know
so I lie
yesterday 400 food
make up food list to text
good job she says
it will get easier
300 food...300 vodka
and the treadmill...its got me
calories, minutes, miles, hours, grams, ounces, even, odd
its so hard
but soooo much easier then dealing with whats in front of me
I need to
please dear lord have mercy on me, Im so afraid.
and so I lie
it will be seen
I am not whole
will I ever be....