post number 300!!
anyway in my current state, my T, N, and pdoc have communicated...with me..with each other after hours...I was promised by all 3 they would not commit me...if you all are not from the U.S...that means not to certify...plans have been made...pills to be given to pdoc, she will then dispense to me to give to S who will give me 3 days worthg at a time...S and pdoc will talk thursday to discuss any med changes...and both will call each night...S also instructed oncall services at her practice to directly call her so that she may immediatly call me instead of me talking to some shrink I dont know ( as she knows I wont do) and that in the past has inhibited me from calling services...
I will be safe tonight
tomorrow will come
I dont know know what tomorrow will bring
it might be better
Zack had another episode
I will speak about that on his blog
I m very scared and so have moved all my meds to my car for tonight...
this will pass
this too shall pass...
The BIBLE says so
Im holding on to any hope I might have
because at the moment
swallowing the 234 pills in possesion sounds really really peaceful
I will be safe
is a new day
(drowning in a pool of deep salt water)
salt make you float you know...