well thats where i am right now I am committed to beating this thing( the demon), but well its just so hard...I am committed to not exercising except for my yoga which is what i am allowed to do...I feel like I am headed down the right path, for the first time in a long time I have some hope. I am stepping up to the plate and committed to owning this demon that has had so much control over me the last 14 years...
So lets see I have spent 10 days IP
2 weeks at PHP and guess what I am moving to IOP next week and I am going camping a week from today..holy moly I am so excited..I just love to go camping the smell of the out doors...the smell of the fire...the food ...ekkkk....but K and I planned my meals last night for the four day excursion in to the great wild wilderness with our three little monsters. No just kidding they love to go camping it should be a blast!!!
So what else is going on?? hmmmmm lets see...My mom and I have been getting along pretty well she has been helping me with the kids at night so I can get some cleaning down cause my house is in complete disaray from all the time I spent with my ED...Ed really steals away your time , your life, and your future...I am really thinking I might make it this time...but I am under no illusion that this wont be hard, hard as hell really, maybe worse then childbirth:)
Mike is exhausted from working til the wee hours of the morning and then watching the kids all day but he only has a few days left where he has to be super dad...I will be back on the boat soon enough,
Zack has his appointment with the pulmernary specialist today for his asthma..i am a little, I hope everything turns out alright..pray for him guys, pray for us all...I promise I will have a more exciting post soon but things have been out of sorts here and my thinking is a little blurred ( new meds)...be back soon my peeps