Thats how I feel...CRAPPY!!
I saw S yesterday, She is convinced my potassium is low...hence she is "concerned"...hence I am annoyed.
For multiple reasons...number 1 being I HAVE NOT PURGED IN 5 MONTHS!!!!
I think its B.S.
Her thinking too much coffee ( I have become addicted to starbucks...my car looks like a starbucks grave yard)...not enough water...not enough food...blahhhh side note did you know that something like 50% of a persons fluid intake comes from ACTUAL food...who knew??
Anyway my take on the situationeze this thinking is at best irrational). My body is thinking "who does chic think she is?? She has treated me like shit forever and now she wants me to behave...she is CRAZY!!!).
I think this is complete crap!!!!
I am miserable!!!
I feel horrendous every time I eat...like dizzy, nausea, chest pain, numbness in hands and feet...yes it does SUCK!
Of course it could be 2 things either I 1)am having panic attacks when i eat or 2) I really feel like this most of the time I just feel it most after I eat cause well i am wierd and like to blame it on food...hence trying to wiggle my way out of eating...i mean my madre isnt going to force me to eat allot if she thinks it makes me sick ( this plan would work for a while but i know she wont buy it for long)
okay so right now my right hand is completely numb and tingling and i didnt eat so i guess that blows that theory out of the water...hmmmm
This all sucks my friends... I see the E.D. doc in 4 weeks...and I do not want to go...and if I still feel like this on monday when K asks or tuesday when S asks asks I either must 1) lie or 2) tell the truth and have to risk the fact she may or must likely either call the doctor or make me call in front of her...either option blows...I am not happy...maybe i will go get some G2...( I will not drink the regular crap so dont even tell me its better)...this situation is really making me unhappy.
sorry to be a debbie downer but this all blows the nut
and please stay hydrated...cause well I want you all to be well...