Disagree and Disobey

now we all now I hear loud Ed voices screaming at me like every min. of the day, the first step to overcomeing this and working toward recovering would be to disagree with the ED voice( can you tell i have been reading life without ED...again.

ED: YOU are FAT, you need to starve

ME: I know you are right

ED: Okay so no food

ME: BUT...


ED: NO FOOD

ME: NO ED, I am not fat, I dont need to starve

ED: No you are fat

ME: Iknow...


this scenerio plays out over and over in my head every day, now teh key to winning this is teh disobeying part cause although I might not always disagree with teh Ed voice, it is always my choice to disobey, so folks that was what I did this morning, Ed was screaming inmy ear and I disobeyed, I still believe I am fat, but I dont have to follow Eds rules and for this moment I didnt.

Thats all i can ask for one moment free of Ed at a time

Today I Disobeyed...DO I still feel fat...you bet...but do I feel i gained just a little power back this morning....yes...yes I do!!

Love, Z