Wednesday, August 31, 2011

first day of school

Its been 11 yrs since I have had a first day of school, 11 the moment I am seemingly calm. I am hoping that I sleep tonight and dont wake up at 3 in anticipation of the day, I always wake up numerous times a night but usually I take an extra sleep med and am able to fall back to sleep but I wont do that if I wake tonight out of fear I wont wake up on time. I dont have to be there til 8 but I am waking at 6, and leaving at 7:15, its only 15 min away but I want to stop at Starbucks get my grande non fat latte and be early, I have this horrendous fear of being late.

So anyway, on my last post...I want to explain where all the ED thoughts came from and why they are unfortunately still childrens T Dr.B has been doing allot of research on how to help children with mood disorders who have not had much success with medication...Zack has been officially dx with "mood disorder w/bipolar traits" he has been on numerous medications, many he was allergic too, a few that there were no benefits from, and one that worked but caused him to gain 20 pounds in 4 months so he had to come off it, that was at the end of here we are of another new med with seemingly no benefits :( so she suggested a "mood" diet minimal sugar, no processes foods, no artificial sweeteners, hormone free, organic produce, no red or yellow dye, no fast food...just allot of NO'S, and that is just the tip of the iceberg she hasnt even got into ratio's yet, needless to say I have been hyper sensitive and completely anal about everyones food intake, what it is, whats in it, where its from, what nutrients are in it, I have been spending quite a bit of time grocery shopping, planning and preparing food, addition to the diet changes, she also suggested more structered exercise times, while she thinks that thier active play is wonderful and extremely beneficial to their health


Zena said...

(sorry blogger collasped) she also thinks structured ecercise, walks and bike rides in the evening will help then exert excess energy in a calm structured way, needless to say that vamped up my wanting to exercise more first 30 min walk felt great, as so with first bike ride..and we have been doing it aseveral times a week but now that isnt fast or long enough for me, today I walked an extra hour after T..I will will not do that tomorrow but maybe fri, i need to keep it check, i guess she just really triggered me, I need to try this for my sons wellbeing but I also need to find a happy medium...okay

Love, Tara

Angela E. Lackey said...

You will do great tomorrow!!!

Enjoy this new adventure!

It is understandable that you might feel triggered by all of this. But you can find that happy medium. Let me know if I can do anything, and as always, call me if you need to talk.


Eating Alone said...

You will do great in school. And the kids will get better in time, I pray for you guys.

Study hard!

belinda said...

triggers happen
but you HAVE successfully identified it and i think you can overcome it.

keep talking with S about these issues and watch that exercise.