I said it.
I took it back
I was crying
she didnt know what i meant
but I did
and he did
he left us
he did
he chose to leave
and its a secret i know
and they dont
and it aches
it aches so much
they cant know
but i do
its not fair
none of it
my pain...thiers
it makes no difference
that I know
he did
he made the choice
yes he did
he left us
we are alone
and I hold the secret within me
and I am so
broken
6 comments:
i hurts more than i can imagine. :( even just to read this. *hugs*
You are so strong...I can only imagine how you are feeling, i would never want to say i know but i can imagine, and im so sorry. I wish i could give you a hug and i want to say you are so incredibly strong and brave.
you are so strong you hold onto hope no matter what. i am so proud of you, i can only imagine how you must be feeling. Much love
My loves your words bring me comfort, trying to hold on to the hope in the future, just seems so far away
the future lies in our next minute, our next breath in fact. you will make it through. i know this is more painful that words can express via a blog. i can only imagine what it would be like with the kidlets too. you are protecting them, for now, but this is not your secret. you have the right to speak freely and express your feelings.. maybe not to the kids but to us, your team, your family, your church, your friends.. all of us, here, listening.
you are not alone in this (i know it feels fucking lonely at times though).. remember feeling, not fact? ;)
love you.x
I'm so sorry...all I can offer is hugs and encouragement that you can do this.
And through it all, you were able to reach out to me and give me hopeful words and strong encouragement. Thank you. You are a wonderful, kind and strong person who deserves to be better and happy. I wish and pray for that for you.
Love,
Angela
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