Get over it

that is what I need to do...being wieghed is NOT that big of a deal right?? I need to stop freaking over it and let it go..I just need to get the fuck over it you know...i mean most eded people get wieghed all the time why do i think i am special...well we all know that i am special but you know what i mean..I need to get over allot of things...

Like My DAD...

yep well he has been harasseing my sister about where have i been teh last six weeks and am i writting him off like my other sister did and it was driving her nuts cause I kept telling her i would call but i never did so....I stopped by his work Saturday with the boys ( safe place right) No touchy feely stuff and i left the little girl home so he couldnt touchy feely all on her either...so yeah safe!! He was completely shocked..grining from ear to ear and then he proceded to tell me that god has laid on his heart to send us some money cause he had a feeling we were struggeling...well struggleing is not the word. so yeah...moneys good ...glad I stopped by.

Like my BITCHY MIL

who says that her H my FIL will not be watching my kids while I am at Therapy durning the summer. M called her a douche bag and i am inclined to agree...I mean hello I need therapy i am nuttier then a fruit cake...they tell me so all the time..which is another thing I need to get over...blahhhh bitchy inlaws.

anyway I am doing okay not great but okay...had some nice runs this weekend and today but I am taking tomrrow off so i can see S and process some of this shit thats running through my brain ...like the more i lose the MORE I WANT to lose..not a good combo when you have an ED...Oh and I am refusing to say i have anorexia cause I am too fat right now so I am a bulimic who gave up purging...I need to get over the whole label thing too cause that can really mess with ones brain you know??

i know I sound nutty but hellah I am ..lol.:)



Love, Z