Im going Ip friday
for trauma, suicidal thoughts and attempts and detox and a med staightout all much needed
thats all
just thought Id let you all know I gave in
let go of my pride
and decieded my kids deserve a mother who isnt trying to off herself at every turn...
no computer
no phone
no smokes
I hope I am heavily medicated
or it just might make me crazier
okay
peace out
try to update tomorrow on real feelings
right now
not sure how I feel
8 comments:
Wishing you the best.
proud of you!
Also proud of you. Thinking of you, hope it is helpful and can get you to a positive place.
xxx
Im so scared :(
they will dig into so many feeling and core believes, im not sure I can handle admitting how much I truly hate myself, Mike will think I am weak, Its Alyssas birthday, okay the tears are coming, Please Dear god give me the strength to fight my demons, I feel so alone right now, I have so much to do, and am completely overwhelmed, I want to hide and cry, not an option today, must hold strong, must be brave, I hope the bed is ready tomorrow, the second thoughts are eating at me :(
You are in my thoughts. I know this is so hard and scary. Know that you are never alone. The ed is what will keep you alone and isolated. You are so brave and strong! Keep fighting:)
Sending {{{HUGS}}}
You're never alone. I know we both feel that way right now, but we are not.
I will be praying for you.
*Hugs*
Angela
feeling alone hon, we all know it too well.. but you are not alone, i am with you all the way. the IP process, you know is not one where things will be addressed all at once, it is one thing at a time, one class, meal, thought, sniffle, tear at a time. you can do this (oh, and i know it's overwhelming and scary but it is doable)
sending much love from my own private room IP.
Xx
Came to check in and wish you good luck. Tomorrow is her 8th Birthday? Happy Birthday Alyssa! I somehow thought it was later in the month. Did you have the party after M? I know Zach July 31 and Isaiah April 27??? Hang in there. Stay fighting!
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