tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post7984091892929646529..comments2023-10-23T14:50:26.376-04:00Comments on the struggle within: 14 yearsZenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-31289010465786294602009-08-06T20:31:55.003-04:002009-08-06T20:31:55.003-04:00I responded to your comment on my blog but then ma...I responded to your comment on my blog but then made a new post so u might not see it... just wanted to tell you.<br /><br />YOU ARE GREAT!now.is.nowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05102652111745735039noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-11528991976341186542009-08-06T03:35:33.492-04:002009-08-06T03:35:33.492-04:00Wow, Tara - you are a fighter! I really think *thi...Wow, Tara - you are a fighter! I really think *this time* will be different for you. I think you are in the process of closing the ED chapter of your life. I'm so glad you're trusting the process and I have every belief that that will pay off. You'll go backwards and it'll take a long time and it won't be lots of fun, but it will pay off. You are determined and, you're right, you HAVE to stay on top of this and fight hard. And you will - I know you will! <br /><br />This post is inspiring me. I am not a good example to you right now, but you're inspiring me to have a snack before I go to bed. You're re-inspiring me to trust the process. I don't want to relive my history just like you don't want to relieve yours. And that is why we trust the process because what else is there to do? <br /><br />you're a rockstar, my friend!now.is.nowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05102652111745735039noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-62378547194801097192009-08-05T20:12:55.743-04:002009-08-05T20:12:55.743-04:00my tx tean came into the picture when I was 21 aft...my tx tean came into the picture when I was 21 after my first PHP stay, I had to be relaesed to someone and they found me the best...My mom, Mike and my tx taem in four winds...my home away from home..hahaha... yes I hate that my history seems so horiable and yet I am able to condense it to so little...those were just the bits and pieces of my life with the Ed that I remember...some of it was a complete blur, but ofcouse that was due to malnitrution... Ed has stolen my youth, my entire twenties but I am dertemined not to let it steal my thirties...that said...<br /><br />I restricted today..for the first time in a while...it felt...good...scary... but good I am positively devastated over a friends loss, and I feel horriable it is affecting me this way...I need to be strong for her but i am so or feeling so guilty for being here when her loved one is not...I know it doeant make sense but we all know Ed twists things...I had lunch and a snack and am determined to eat some sort of dinner even if its its really late...I am so frightened...she must be terrified... how to help her through it...I am at a loss..I feel so helpless...NO need to TRUST THE PROCESS...but I am sofrightened...I need comfort and I feel that in hunger...crap..I HATE EDS...I need to fight harder..<br /><br />Love, ZZenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-75643292752044104942009-08-05T20:06:31.263-04:002009-08-05T20:06:31.263-04:00Z- I have always been inspired by your courage to ...Z- I have always been inspired by your courage to fight this illness! Look at all you have been through, and how well you are doing now, even if it is uncomfortable! Thank you so much for sharing your story. You amaze me!lisalisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03506556513672749033noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-78544494946977280812009-08-05T18:48:58.612-04:002009-08-05T18:48:58.612-04:00Wow. Amazing. Amazing. Amazing. You have endured s...Wow. Amazing. Amazing. Amazing. You have endured so so much. Thank you for sharing that with us.<br /><br />XO<br />FlushedLina (of Flushed)https://www.blogger.com/profile/18422488691637743606noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-68142662446980065062009-08-05T14:43:06.544-04:002009-08-05T14:43:06.544-04:00Wow, I didn't know you were in and out of the ...Wow, I didn't know you were in and out of the hospital so many times. That's scary. You got pregnant so easily too, weird!<br /><br />Charro always says to me, when talking about pregnancy, "you don't want to pass this on to your children." I thought of that while reading this.PTChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05377666179155825301noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-47982681068478059582009-08-05T14:35:18.993-04:002009-08-05T14:35:18.993-04:00T: I found your history update interesting. Hmmm I...T: I found your history update interesting. Hmmm I can't remember some parts of my journey. Maybe because it's been forever. It made it sound like you didn't have ed for a long time. Kind of weird. So the forcing you around didn't work. You can do this! Oh you never said when your treatment team came into the picture.fireflyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02443020437138183849noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-90152175726781971832009-08-05T13:24:01.207-04:002009-08-05T13:24:01.207-04:00It makes me sad to read how long you've had to...It makes me sad to read how long you've had to struggle with this terrible disorder. I see so many similarities in the stories of people with eating disorders: interventions, treatment centers, collapsing. I hate what the eating disorder does to us. I'm so happy that you are starting the recovery chapter of your life. I hope that the next fourteen years are better than the past for you.Just Eat It!https://www.blogger.com/profile/18063645003673364407noreply@blogger.com