tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post4688147782635980447..comments2023-10-23T14:50:26.376-04:00Comments on the struggle within: a writting assignmentZenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-43803978335763544722010-10-26T14:59:55.469-04:002010-10-26T14:59:55.469-04:00This will sound like odd advice, but here it is. ...This will sound like odd advice, but here it is. Learn to fight. <br /><br />Try to find a good mixed martial arts (MMA) gym, or a boxing club. <br /><br />I have given this advice to other people with severe abuse or emotional abuse issues. One young man had his life changed. <br /><br />You have adopted the name you have because you understand that you must BECOME A WARRIOR to lose the churning darkness that is inside you. <br /><br />This insight IS CORRECT. <br /><br />Please seriously consider this advice. I believe it can change your life, and at minimum you will find people who are real and respect you and get it great shape.Vlad Z.https://www.blogger.com/profile/06877578308529753862noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-83688931208414794562010-10-24T16:18:08.520-04:002010-10-24T16:18:08.520-04:00hon, you can use the same skype account on your ne...hon, you can use the same skype account on your newie. i will help you.<br /><br />oh and...<br />you can feel like shit, hey we all do sometimes on different levels but i'm here to tell you to look at the facts re the name calling ;)<br />think of those labels really. do you know of anyone that is those things? think of what they mean.<br />now think.. have you done any of those things? do you deserve those names (and if you do, that means i did/do too!).<br /><br />you know the truth, it just hurts like hell right now. i know it's hard, you hear the bullshit for so long. of course you come to believe it. the cycle stops with you now though honey.<br /><br />these are not just words.<br />i love you. <br />xxbelindahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01130794351120140046noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-742971433272849022010-10-24T01:41:20.333-04:002010-10-24T01:41:20.333-04:00Awww Sorry things are hard. Thought this poem woul...Awww Sorry things are hard. Thought this poem would inspire you!<br /><br />Do you wonder why you have to feel the things that hurt you<br />If there’s a God who loves you, where is He now<br />Maybe there are things you can’t see<br />And all those things are happening to bring a better ending<br />Someday somehow you’ll see, you’ll see<br /><br />Would you dare, would you dare to believe<br />That you still have a reason to sing<br />Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling<br />It can’t compare to the joy that’s coming<br />So hold on you gotta wait for the light<br />Press on and just fight the good fight<br />Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling<br />It’s just the dark before the morning<br /><br />My friend, you know how this all ends, you know where you’re going<br />You just don’t know how you’ll get there, so say a prayer<br />And hold on cause there’s good for those who love God<br />But life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time<br />But you’ll see the bigger picture<br /><br />Once you feel the weight of glory<br />All your pain will fade to memory<br />Once you feel the weight of glory<br />All your pain will fade to memory<br /><br />Would you dare, would you dare to believe<br />That you still got a reason to sing<br />Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling<br />It can’t compare to the joy that’s coming<br />Come on you gotta wait for the light<br />Press on and just fight the good fight<br />Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling<br />It’s just the hurt before the healing<br />Oh the pain that you’ve been feeling<br />It’s just the dark before the morningfireflyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02443020437138183849noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-73679378622909868542010-10-23T16:41:46.271-04:002010-10-23T16:41:46.271-04:00I cant see Im not what he said 12 years, thats how...I cant see Im not what he said 12 years, thats how long I heard those words, anyway I feel like shit, I appreciate your beautiful words, they do help to hear it...that i am not those things, Im miserable right now, I feel like literal shit, I took something I should not have after going to the gym, and now I feel hideous, so sick...<br /><br />B, I might buy a new one, stil get the other fixed just give to kids, anyway will you be able to set another skype account for name on that computer???<br /><br />love you all, <br /><br />TaraZenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-80190836833681203502010-10-22T20:49:02.550-04:002010-10-22T20:49:02.550-04:00ok
breathe...
firstly, that older man :(
that is ...ok<br />breathe...<br /><br />firstly, that older man :(<br />that is vile, i hope you have told the school. you should not have to suffer anxiety when dropping your kids off. what he did is inappropriate.<br /><br />men asking for you number, or out for drinks etc.. this makes you the opposite of those names that you (mike) are calling yourself. perhaps, can you take a step back and see that you are a beautiful person and they might just want to spend time with you.<br /><br />i hear what S is saying.<br />having other men interested leads to the flashbacks of rants you were subjected to for so many years. honey, you know you haven't done a single thing to deserve those labels. they are not you, not then, not now. M was sick, he was scared and he was jealous. that doesn't excuse the abuse but it can be taken into consideration. <br /><br />now onto the e/d..<br />hmmm.. funny how with every pound lost you are feeling worse and yet you continue to use this method to cope. i've done it too. it doesn't seem to make sense. on one hand i can see that it continues the pattern of abuse that we became accustomed to and of course, i totally get the desire to vanish. we both know that starving will not make our pain vanish (because that is what we are really wanting, i think). all starving, restricting and using a, b, & c as coping mechanisms will bring us all is MORE attention, MORE heartache and yup, MORE struggles :(<br /><br />i wish it wasn't this way.<br />you deserve to be free of the abuse, both from M and from the e/d. <br /><br />(get that computer fixed! i miss you)<br /><br />Xxbelindahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01130794351120140046noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-9674314420667151732010-10-22T20:33:12.468-04:002010-10-22T20:33:12.468-04:00Wow, Tara. Very sad reading this. Keep writing if ...Wow, Tara. Very sad reading this. Keep writing if it helps you, please.<br />I'm thinking of you. I hope one day you can work through these feelings because you are not any of those things that you have been called.Alexandra Risinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06037472220915433875noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-68642224373648266552010-10-21T09:41:20.262-04:002010-10-21T09:41:20.262-04:00wow, that old man was very inappropriate and creep...wow, that old man was very inappropriate and creepy and you have every right to feel the way you do. I would complain to the school about him (even though they probably cant do anything if it was not on school grounds)! You should be able to feel safe when you pick up your kids.<br />SOme guys just make me sick. Guys that say thing like that, or even the ones who whistle and catcall when a woman walks by. What makes them think we want that kind of attention? Seriously!<br /><br />XOLisalisalisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03506556513672749033noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-66464852614907132642010-10-21T08:47:30.038-04:002010-10-21T08:47:30.038-04:00Don't you dare stop writing! The men who have ...Don't you dare stop writing! The men who have approached you are pervs and sick to talk to you the way they do. That old man can kiss my ass. If I were there I would have slapped him twice in the face and screamed my rage at him until it caused a scene and I had to be escorted away!! Oh that makes me so mad he did that to you. <br /><br />On another note...I am so very sorry for what your ex did to you. Abuse on a woman by a man is never acceptable. What happened to you was so very wrong and it shouldn't have been that way. I wish you the very best sweetie! Stay strong.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com