tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post3247602763707676830..comments2023-10-23T14:50:26.376-04:00Comments on the struggle within: sadnessZenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-71600298122293908352008-09-04T18:19:00.000-04:002008-09-04T18:19:00.000-04:00So glad to hear you're feeling a bit better today,...So glad to hear you're feeling a bit better today, dear Zena.<BR/><BR/>Z is right, and it is such a common occurence in abusers - the ability to appear "perfect" in situations where it benefits them, but being able to split into something totally different otherwise. It's what leads to so much confusion in survivors of abuse, too.<BR/><BR/>I hope your night is going well. <BR/><BR/>Take gentle care,<BR/>S.So I ran faster but you caught me here.https://www.blogger.com/profile/00208633429278160277noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-24520990533395439552008-09-04T17:01:00.000-04:002008-09-04T17:01:00.000-04:00hey Z, the program is going great!!! I am being di...hey Z, <BR/><BR/>the program is going great!!! I am being discharged on monday...4 weeks flew by;) I am doing so well its scary I almost want to pinch myself to see if its just a dream, you know ?? I am trying real hard to be mindful and pay attention to what I am feeling and not just say I cant bear it and give into symptoms..that is no longer an option, I am desperate to recover!!!<BR/><BR/>Hey dear firefly, <BR/><BR/>As first day went great she had a blast and I worried for nothing, she going to be taking the bus home on tues and thursdays which she is estacic about...she looked a little scared this morning but she had another great day so hopefully it will stay that way...thanks for asking.<BR/><BR/>the sadness isnt so intense today I am managing...and I will keep on pluging foward!!<BR/><BR/>Love, ZenaZenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-68601965703230691402008-09-04T12:17:00.000-04:002008-09-04T12:17:00.000-04:00Oh honey. he sounds really very narcissisitc, whic...Oh honey. he sounds really very narcissisitc, which means that he would be good at that stuff... you know, making folks think he was a good guy.<BR/><BR/>How's the program going, hon?<BR/><BR/>it seems as though you have so many conflicted feelings around your dad. His inappropriateness, and yet the desire and the longing to have him be a father. Oh petal.zubeldiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09540610591568098744noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-35146348295151387972008-09-04T07:41:00.000-04:002008-09-04T07:41:00.000-04:00the kids started school yesterday..I dont feel I w...the kids started school yesterday..I dont feel I was cheated at remuda I feel like my dad manipulated everyone, something he is very good at, although he did call to see how the kids first day of school was so that is an improvement...he never called on my first days of school....<BR/><BR/>love, ZenaZenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-46356824751300158202008-09-03T21:45:00.000-04:002008-09-03T21:45:00.000-04:00I'M sorry you are feeling sadness. You need to gri...I'M sorry you are feeling sadness. You need to grieve for the little girl and speak up about your dad's inappropriate touches.I'm surprised these things were not addressed during family work. Oh Zena I feel like you got cheated at your Remuda experience or maybe you needed more time. Take it all to your iop experience. Talk about it in groups. These is the deeper stuff. You need support with hugs! <BR/>Did the kids start school yet?fireflyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02443020437138183849noreply@blogger.com