tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post2808394943676794649..comments2023-10-23T14:50:26.376-04:00Comments on the struggle within: Liar Liar pants on fire!@!!Zenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-38338363155256247462009-04-16T20:51:00.000-04:002009-04-16T20:51:00.000-04:00Yep, she works there.Yep, she works there.PTChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05377666179155825301noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-11517360355299613002009-04-16T20:45:00.000-04:002009-04-16T20:45:00.000-04:00I think I have a friend who works at McCleans. Sh...I think I have a friend who works at McCleans. She's a social worker. I need to check on that...PTChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05377666179155825301noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-34698150640419607162009-04-16T20:10:00.000-04:002009-04-16T20:10:00.000-04:00Z,
McLean's program is in Belmont, MA.
http://ww...Z,<br /><br />McLean's program is in Belmont, MA.<br /><br />http://www.mclean.harvard.edu/patient/adult/bpd.php<br /><br />Their BPD program is world-renowned. Seriously. <br /><br />Love,<br />S.So I ran faster but you caught me here.https://www.blogger.com/profile/00208633429278160277noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-19680340065805084322009-04-16T19:56:00.000-04:002009-04-16T19:56:00.000-04:00tahnkyou all for the bottom of my heart on all you...tahnkyou all for the bottom of my heart on all your sweet and understanding responses...thankyou for forgiving me and thankyou for your support..i will consider all my options...where is mcleans??<br /><br />I live in NY<br />upstate<br /><br />Love, ZZenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-89873390105944138302009-04-16T17:22:00.000-04:002009-04-16T17:22:00.000-04:00If you did decide to do something IP (and I'm not ...If you did decide to do something IP (and I'm not saying you have to although I do understand why others are suggesting it and thus not saying its a bad idea either!) I think doing something that will help BOTH is good, like JD said.<br /><br />If you do a program that also includes BPD, just make sure that its does not feel to you like it is punishment orientated as that will make the ED worse. Rather gives support and boundaries and clear guidelines for bpd behaviours AND eating!!<br /><br />Love you hunni LOTS<br />xoxoxTelstaarhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04551330755337480779noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-35542903642787072032009-04-16T14:50:00.000-04:002009-04-16T14:50:00.000-04:00I would say I agree treatment should be considered...I would say I agree treatment should be considered- but after following your blogs for a long time I agree completley with Telstaar- I would even suggest looking into tx for the BDP. Like S said- McLean's has a great program for BPD which can also adress the ED at the same time...<br />take a look at it maybe and talk about it with S. BPD can affect so much and it can really increase all the ED behaviors for so many different reasons. <br />Good LuckAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-85721156105026817622009-04-16T05:38:00.000-04:002009-04-16T05:38:00.000-04:00*blushes*
sorry!! xoxoxoxoxox XOXOXOX*blushes*<br /><br />sorry!! xoxoxoxoxox XOXOXOXTelstaarhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04551330755337480779noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-14922033978220743822009-04-16T01:17:00.000-04:002009-04-16T01:17:00.000-04:00I agree with everyone here, Zena. This is way beyo...I agree with everyone here, Zena. This is way beyond your control and you need serious and intensive help. I agree with PTC that you need to go to a treatment center. I don't care how many times you've been, this is now. You need this kind of help now. Please listen to us...JChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15334635689175224268noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-46931422198587493082009-04-15T23:12:00.000-04:002009-04-15T23:12:00.000-04:00Do you have insurance, Z?
I think McLean's BPD pr...Do you have insurance, Z?<br /><br />I think McLean's BPD program might be something to look into.<br /><br />S.So I ran faster but you caught me here.https://www.blogger.com/profile/00208633429278160277noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-57200036941332761002009-04-15T22:29:00.000-04:002009-04-15T22:29:00.000-04:00It is not your fault- it is the eating disorder. D...It is not your fault- it is the eating disorder. Don't blame yourself. Don't be afraid to get more help; I think both you and your children could benefit from you being healthy. I would forgive you, but I feel there is no fault here to forgive. You did nothing wrong, and it happens. I'm proud of you for being able to come clean about your struggles. <3Just Eat It!https://www.blogger.com/profile/18063645003673364407noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-18083807383494861532009-04-15T20:18:00.000-04:002009-04-15T20:18:00.000-04:00I really think you should look into a tx program. ...I really think you should look into a tx program. Really! I hate seeing you go through this. Seriously, you can go get free, amazing treatment right here in nyc.PTChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05377666179155825301noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-86458960663735818372009-04-15T20:09:00.000-04:002009-04-15T20:09:00.000-04:00Lisa,
I am not on face book although I have an ac...Lisa, <br />I am not on face book although I have an account i never use it...but we could be email buddies..my email is mmackey8@nycap.rr.com...<br /><br />hope your bum is feeling better:)<br /><br />Love, ZZenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-5464326675545096172009-04-15T20:08:00.000-04:002009-04-15T20:08:00.000-04:00wow, Tels...you touched my heart first thanks for ...wow, Tels...you touched my heart first thanks for saying you forgive me, that means allot!!!(((hug)))..second I havent even thought that the borderline aspect might be playing a role, thanks for pointing that out I will bring it up in T on friday...you are right I am pushing boundries to see how far I can go with out be abandoned...its sad and scary...to know that I do that either conciously or unconciously....I love your imput it means teh world to me! thankyou for saying that you would still be interested to read if i didnt have all this choas going on...I could talk about the real things in my life, like my love for art...my kids tee ball pactice and god...thanks for the word of god, Ill check it out, <br /><br />so much love to you<br /><br />Z..,ps my name is tara:)Zenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-69541061336554298102009-04-15T16:24:00.000-04:002009-04-15T16:24:00.000-04:00(WARNING! Mini essay coming up!)
Hunni,
There is...(WARNING! Mini essay coming up!)<br /><br />Hunni,<br /><br />There is ALLL the ed stuff going on but remember you also have BPD. To me it sounds a little bit like the BPD is acting up as well and you needs LOTS of reassurance right now from key people. That's okay! It might just be a good idea to keep it in mind and maybe even figure out an inbuilt way of finding what reassurance you need and ways to achieve that very honestly without needing to go back to ed behaviours to help keep you supported... goodness, I'm soooo not sure I"m making sense!<br /><br />Trying a different way, I guess I get the sense that on the one hand you're so worried about being abandoned (completely or partially through reduced support) by S and maybe even by us if you get better or people think you're doing okay, that you need to engage in the ed behaviours to scream, "I'M NOT OKAY YET!!!". On the other hand though, it's almost like your mind is pushing these same people to their limits to see just how long they'll stick around for so you know exactly how far you can (or can't) trust them, so you know how MUCH you can fall apart. Problem is, by the time you've pushed someone too far, it is then too late. Thus you've managed to not let yourself get "as hurt" (theoretically) and you get the punishment and reinforcement that you're a bad person that you feel you deserve (which you do not deserve!) because they left!<br /><br />Now know that I'm not ignoring ALL the ed stuff going on as well in this picture... but can you see how the BPD (which is an ILLNESS) might be playing a bit of havoc too?? I just think it might be good to take that into consideration when planning so that you know where the boundaries are from the start and can be a bit safer in your recovery.<br /><br />I DO believe you can do this! But Tina, simply because you recover from your ed (whenever that may be), I still will hope you write your blog, I still will hope that you read mine, I still will be interested in your life :). That is just me.<br /><br />You CAN do this, you ARE doing this even though its a tad haphazard right now.<br /><br />Thankyou for apologising for lying to us. Even though I know a lot of that are the disorders (ed/bpd), you are still taking responsibility and considering OUR feelings which I appreciate. You are forgiven.<br /><br />Lets pick up the bat and keep metaphorically running!<br /><br />Check out Philippians 3:12-14. Be encouraged hunni!<br /><br />I love you hunni!!!<br /><br />Love Telly xoxoTelstaarhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04551330755337480779noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-75071953146502838742009-04-15T15:56:00.000-04:002009-04-15T15:56:00.000-04:00lisa,
My H is pissed, He wants to know why I am d...lisa,<br /><br />My H is pissed, He wants to know why I am doing this to the family ...again...it is a rough time of year , summer aroaching...warm weather makes me want to run...le sigh...<br /><br />love, ZZenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-73986752776568978892009-04-15T15:48:00.000-04:002009-04-15T15:48:00.000-04:00i was wondering if you wanted to be "friends" on F...i was wondering if you wanted to be "friends" on FB; I'm on it all the time! My email is chriss-wife@hotmail.com for some reason my computer wont let me email youlisalisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03506556513672749033noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-41423608716237473452009-04-15T15:38:00.000-04:002009-04-15T15:38:00.000-04:00I am proud of you for facing things and telling yo...I am proud of you for facing things and telling your team what's really going on. I hope you can turn it around. If you have to go into tx, the Center for Change in Utah is AWESOME! I wish there was something I could do to help. This must be a rough time of year- practically everyone i know is struggling! What does your hubbie say? I hope he is supportive. ((hugs))lisalisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03506556513672749033noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-79000232756978510452009-04-15T15:08:00.000-04:002009-04-15T15:08:00.000-04:00maybe...i just cant stop crying...maybe...i just cant stop crying...Zenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-68092186068347638652009-04-15T14:59:00.000-04:002009-04-15T14:59:00.000-04:00Don't give up, though. I had a friend who went to...Don't give up, though. I had a friend who went to Remuda as well, actually 2 friends. One had to go back to Renfrew after Remuda but has been doing really well since. They say it takes a few times. Maybe you weren't ready then.PTChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05377666179155825301noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-2819295522632899092009-04-15T14:53:00.000-04:002009-04-15T14:53:00.000-04:00I just dont see any hope in tx centers, I have bee...I just dont see any hope in tx centers, I have been to the 2 best in the country and look where i am...sighZenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-92003466900947277042009-04-15T14:42:00.000-04:002009-04-15T14:42:00.000-04:00I know you don't want to leave your kids, but that...I know you don't want to leave your kids, but that might be the only way to actually beat this thing.PTChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05377666179155825301noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-51155784282682774832009-04-15T14:30:00.000-04:002009-04-15T14:30:00.000-04:00I know but it makes me so sad I want to cry...I ne...I know but it makes me so sad I want to cry...I need to do this for my kids, they need me to be there I just need to get back on track...i see the big ED doc in 2 weeks so well see what she says about my health...Im getting a little nervous though...fuck I am crying now.<br /><br />ZZenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03857291235181694200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6709375526155793906.post-65254841901081322862009-04-15T14:27:00.000-04:002009-04-15T14:27:00.000-04:00This is not a knock against you, but I don't think...This is not a knock against you, but I don't think you can do it on your own. I don't think anyone can when they get as far down the hole as you are.PTChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05377666179155825301noreply@blogger.com